We had a fight for no reason partly it was my fault I let go of my guards and forgot the “rules” i became myself. too excited about a news I failed to reply to him like he likes and yet we got into another fight.

i just wonder how long would this continue how much would i have to lose myself to gain more time in this marriage and why do I do this I wonder. I guess coz I am not a quitter never was and never will be.

I dont even make sense to myself at times and this is certianly one of them. I see all these happy couples around me having fun clicking away happy memories and displaying them for the sad unhappy ones like us to envy. I dont know why I cant be content, I want my core my innermost self to become relaxed to just breath deeply and let go.