This is how it feels to finally realize what might be the cause of all the distress. It feels satifying to realize why do I feel anxious, why does it seem that nothing is going the way it should go as and why cant I be satisfied. What am I truly looking for. Is it love, passion, emotion, understanding or just this that I can never be the same again. I have been too spoiled to be normal now.

He did something what He used to do. He anticipated my needs and I felt the same pang again.

Would it ever go away, He says it wont but lets hope. What a wonderful word that is. I am hoping again. Therefore I am concluding that not all is lost. If I can hope again I can feel again, I can care again and may be possibly love again…….