I have never been this stressed in my life before between ami’s illness, interviews and him acting up I am just tired.  I just cant take it anymore. I never thought this was all in me. I never thought I can be this resilient. Pata nahee kia kaho kia lakho kuch bhee samajh mei nahee araha meray.

mei pakistan jana chati ho ami ke pass unko dhekhna cheahti ho unki care karna chahti ho. interviews aik alag marhala hain. arif alag mujhay pareshan kar raha hai. pata nahee kia karu. mujhay lagta hai mera deemagh phat jai ga. koi bhee nahee hai meri baat sunay ke liya mujhay samjhnay ke liya. uss ko bataya mei ne tu kehta hai Allah karam karey ga. kuch nahee ke tum baat karna chati ho, kuch bhee nahee. mei kis tarha sab karu samjh mei nahee ata.