He is emotionally unavailable to say the least. he doesn’t want to connect on an emotional level. I wonder what stops him . Some time I feel it is his ego. how can he a man a strong powerful MAN connect to a women how can he open his heart and soul to his wife some one his inferior. other times I feel he is plain resisting it coz he doesn’t want to be emotionally dependent when he is sure this relationship wont last. other times i feel that may be he is as cold and hard as he seems.

yes he cares for me he provides me well. he calls me when he thinks i would be upset but then i tolerate his BS too. he yells at me at the drop of teh hat. yesterday all i said ‘tum ho na’ bass he just blasted off calling me names (yes he is calling the situation names but it certainly doesn’t sound like that when he says ‘BC tum samjhtee ku nahee ho’) khair when I tolerate his tempers blasts why cant he reassure me this fucking relationship would last. As I see it it wont coz he says it wont. I so dont want to go to him. I know what is awaiting me there. I am so not motivated to go. Yes i want to get out of teh situation here but I certainly doesnt want to go into another situation.

He says ‘just chill’ I wish he was here to say it. All my confidants leave and then I am not to complain to You why bhaeee!!!!!!!!

Ya ALLAH!!!!!