he says, ” why cant u just leave me, it would be better for both of us”, “u know what the final solution is” or “i know we wont last and are destined to be separate”

this all hurts me tremendously but not as much as it used to. now just a tear or may be two would fall. these statements are losing its hurting capacity.

then after some time if i express how frustrated i am and how i am about to lose my patience which believe me i do in a very subtle way coz if i lose my cool in a loud explosive way like before he would explode and end everything instantly. as i was saying if i express that i am tired of not getting anything positive outta him, he would turn into the sweet old thing i married.

same happened last night. he kept on going on and on about how bad everything was and how he wasn’t satisfied and how he sees no future for teh two of and how bad i am. i kinda lost it not immediately i thought about it then went online rather than call him and expressed myself and he said he would call me in a while which he did after three hours in the middle of my slumber but hell who is complaining atleast he called i am happy about that and said some wondeful things “you are my wife and if soemthign would happen to u i would get hurt”, “i dont know how to express these kind of feelings” and with so much conviction ” Aa, i would never cheat on you”.

i know these are not outta this world comments but where he is concerned these are.